give it to someone special
taken from bbc.co.uk. my thoughts below.
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There are three phases to falling in love and different hormones are involved at each stage
Events occurring in the brain when we are in love have similarities with mental illness
When we are attracted to somebody, it could be because subconsciously we like their genes
" Smell could be as important as looks when it comes to the fanciability factor. We like the look and smell of people who are most like our parents Does love make you sad?
Rather than making you happy, love could actually make you depressed. One symptom of OCD appears to be unusually low levels of the neuro-transmitter 'serotonin'. Low levels of serotonin have been associated with anxiety and depression. Italian students who claimed they had recently fallen in love were found to have serotonin levels 40% lower than their peers. "
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with exception to this morning, today's been pretty smooth. did last minute shopping at parkway. surely my serotonin level has risen. my heart's been broke. i don't think i've smiled so far today.
will have xmas dinner at godpa's and maybe denise will come over later or smth. plus dad's going to HK tonight, wont be back till after xmas. sad. every year he's away for the hols. guess others are more fortunate.
i got a new phone. had to delete my sweet messages. for better i suppose.
i miss bao a lot. nobody can replace her right now. bao's just too perfect. the best anyone could have. i guess it's not right to hold someone back. she now has all the justification to relinquish all attachment to me. "he's got li". i don't want li. li's got her guy and they're looking good together. li doesn't make me happy like bao does.
bao i hope you're happy with him. i won't spite anyone, anything. it's the holidays.