three knives.
##update: i'm still sick, so is the brother. i haven't gotten the chance to see him but i hear he's asked about me. i've also heard how he reacts to the ketamine sedatives.
i'm staying clear of party drugs forever. ##
exams are over! next up are ao chinese and oral presentation for PW(pussy willow). i was thinking before the exams, the weeks following the end of exams would be great, getting back lost sleep, playing bf2. best of all it would be the first time in years i had my birthday after exams.i had fun! for one weekend.
monday - birthday. i get back some of my results. an E and an O. i've never studied so hard in my entire existance. the closest i've gotten to working so hard was probably during the poem(peom) writing sessions in sec four about lustful teenagers, roses and whatnot. disappointing it was.
the class sings me a song and that sorta cheered me up. even though some did as badly as me =)
that was five days ago. two days ago my brother was found to have leukemia. we thought it was dengue at first when his blood platelet count was 10, but blood tests later found that 50+% of his blood was already 'corrupted'. he's gonna have to spend the next seven months in hospital undergoing chemo and stuff. and two years of treatment.
i haven't seen him since he left the house on tuesday night. i can't visit him in hospital, i'm not allowed to. the flu i had worsened during the two rainy days.
sometimes the concept of how fragile life is doesn't strike you until you become a witness to events like these. sometimes i just want days to pass just so i can enjoy myself. but i don't think my bro will be enjoying himself much anymore. and to think that before, he would sit beside me almost every evening and watch me entertain myself on the playstation. he enjoyed watching me have fun.
i don't know what to do. i didn't think my birthday was fun. but i doubt my bro's gonna have his any better on the 25th. i hear he has needles all over his arms. he's not even ten damnit.
i hope i get well by then. would be even better if he got well.